I was so scared to let go because part of me knew that if I did I had a good chance of not only outgrowing my H, but also finally realizing that I deserved better. I know that probably sounds crazy, but I was so afraid of coming to that conclusion. I didn't want it to be over, even though I can look back and see I wasn't happy in the marriage.
The funny thing is that in letting go I found new things about both my H and I that I love even more. I am most proud of getting to the place of being able to look at him and say, "I love you enough to want you to be happy, even if that doesn't include me." That was a tough thing for me. REALLY TOUGH. Oh, and he knew it. He felt like I was holding him hostage. How much do you suppose that made him want to be around me?
What befuddles me is when we let go...they do not??
Change the Policy. Allow PM's Free all of us.
Also some new and improved emoticons would be nice!
