Hello..all...just some updates..things are looking ok. H and I refinanced our house Friday...I know that means nothing as far as the m...he might be trying to get payments as low as possible knowing I can't afford it myself...He did have to write a check and took out his checkbook for that..I strained to see if he had changed address to his apartment..I don't htink he has, still our home address..good sign???checks don't cost him anything, so it is not for that reason. I told him goodbye for his Tn. trip with church, said maybe call if he wants to. Later he stopped by and sat on deck with me..gave me itinery and phone numbers of camp sight..as he was leaving to his car, I debated if I should give him a hug..I did..I ran to him and said" would you like a hug"..then "I would like a hug"..he smiled and gave me a VERY nice one..and then he said laughing"behave yourself..oh wait, I'm the one leaving" He also called me later and told me he left the explorer in the church lot, if I want to use it(he knows I always loved driving it).
So I have much to be thankful for...he would not have to do all these things if he really felt in his heart that there is no hope for us, and I sure don't want him back out of duty or force. If someone would have asked me a year ago, I might have said I would want him back no matter what..boy I have made progress... thanks to everyone here and for realizing on my own what I want and need in life.
