Sandi's Here in Piecing from Almost WAW

[Forrest Gump]

Ok I said I was gonna read it and I gave it my best shot.

Now I am more confused than ever.

I am sorry my brain is small. I can only consume 1-2 things at a time.

So lets just whittle this down.

Sandi2 posts. I read the first one. I know I did. Some people posted. Ok got that. I seem to remember I did not post on the first go round. I ran across something you posted to Littlebitlost. Actually I still have the first draft here. Lets just go with you were wrong. I understand that. Again understand I focus on what I can relate to. I never expected you to understand where I was coming from. I never faulted you for being wrong. I understand not everyone will get me. I am ok with that. If you do not I may call you out. If I do not post/respond/talk to you then rest assured.. Its all good with me.

So we are done with that.

What I saw, from the first post you made till the posting here, was someone talking about me. I understand that people come here trying for a fix. Me and you came here for the exact same reason. What I have missed is where does the OM (Husband) play into this. Now notice that I put Husband in "" right after OM. There is some significance to that. I truly feel you should name your computer "Big C." If you don't like that name that is ok. You can name it whatever you like. I really like "Big C" because it ties into my fantasy world. I fully expect you not to get it. Not because you are "dumb" but because you are ill informed.

When I see your name (Sandi2) it draws up a song. I think Alan Jackson wrote it. Its called "I wanna talk about me." I am usually really good about music but if I got it wrong, please, somebody correct me.

Now this song talks about a man and a woman going on a date. Now understand she is a WAW in the making. The DAM (Alan) eventually just says "I wanna talk about me!" Now being a country song it all works out. Yea, not real life.

So what I am saying is that sometimes I don't see "life" in you. What I connect with is when people show themselves here. They talk about the effect this is having on "their" life. I just never got that from you. All I saw was you. After 2-3 years it should be "your" life. Does that make sense?

Now I just want to say... I may never be able to post and help you. Some just won't get me. I never want you to stop posting. While I disagree with some stuff, I would still point out the good in what you have to say.

I just wish at times I knew who you really were. You have so many excuses. 9 out of 10 times I just feel tired reading your posts. I just want you to understand that thru it all I want the La-Z-Boy rocking when you roll out. How can I not want that for you. I am P-guy 110%.

I tell everyone here.. You post. You got my vote. It becomes "you job" to fix it. That plain. That simple. I can't talk to anyone else. What you are doing/have done is not working. Happy you are in a better place but still. I am left wanting from way over here.

You shine thru at times and that is when I see who you are. I do not dislike you at all. I just feel like if I laid out what I saw it would become a "Excuse Fest".

I understand you have walked thru life "wanting". So has he. I just don't know if I have the answers to help you find it.

As fate would have it I want you to start posting his thoughts for me. Gimme his perspective from yours. You can slip them in. Just show me something. I know its there. I just can't see what I am "missing" yet.