Sorry to hear that you seem to have taken a step back, I know the cold icy feeling in the stomach just too well! I really really feel for you right now.
My W is still at home and apart from sparing the kids some pain, I wish she was able to just go and live with OM for a while, I am sure that would end the fantasy a bit quicker!! (He is butt ugly too!).
I have started a post under MLC that gives my present situation. Not sure either where my W is in the MLC cycle. I think she is in depression but putting a brave face on things. Would be nice to see an end to it all, but just got to keep going, just got a bit cross with her so I just backslid a bit. Oh well will go and apologize in a minute.
I am sure if you ignore the deadline he will too. MLCers definitely don't like any pressure. My experience is a pressured decision is always to run, or at least to say they are going to anyway.
I too ask myself why I am standing, I think it is best for the kids ,I do love who my wife was and hopefully who she may become. BUT I think none of us deserve this kind of pain. I don't want to meet another woman and like you being alone would not be a problem either but I do want to be happy with the woman I love(d?). I guess the pain of D would be worse. If it doesn't work out I hope I look back in 5 years time and say I honestly did all I could.
Please hang on in there Stella you have inspired me before I would hate to lose you off here!!
With regards telling everybody is H starting to show guilt? Is he 'fessing up to a few people.
From an earlier post it sounded like H was making noises about extricating himself from the mess he is in. Was he sounding you out?
Thank you, (((4MF))), your concern and support mean a lot to me!
i'm up and DBing! Lost heart for a moment yesterday
I've got my summer class. It means I will stay here alone, after H and D17 leave for our hometown (sigh), for two months. I may come to regret my decision later, but at the moment I'm convinced it's a right thing to do and a great 180 (not to mention financial gain).
I will check your thread on MLC. It's hard to tell with stages... Could be still overlap between Replay and Depression. I agree with you and Addie, moving in with OP can speed things up. But as I'm still recovering after finding out about H living with OW, I must say it's awfully hard to get over.
Originally Posted By: 4myfamily
With regards telling everybody is H starting to show guilt? Is he 'fessing up to a few people.
My H is loaded with guilt and feels very low for quite some time now. Doesn't stop him from having a full blown A though!
Take care, 4MF, and good luck to you too.
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
I'm glad to hear you've rebounded.. some days are just so tough.. but then amazingly enough you wake up one morning and you feel "almost" normal again. Here's hoping for many, many more "almost" normal or even better, "happy" normal days!!
I AM normal again. Very close to "happy" normal actually!
First of all, I decided to pamper myself a little, so I went and bought a lovely handmade oriental rug, something I always wanted (a store-closing sale). Both my cat and dog approved of it greatly.
And when I came back I found a very positive e-mail from H waiting for me. I have forwarded him some information yesterday (didn't add anything to it, just "check it out") and he replied today with a lengthy and very warm letter
Baby step?
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
I wish I could invite you over guys for a "new rug" party and a glass of wine!
thank you ((Kalni))!
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
Another e-mail came today, also quite nice. He sent me some pics (his new project). I've written to him that I've got the summer course to teach and he was very pleased (because I'm stuck here for yet another 2 months? because of extra money? because it's a 180 for me?). Who knows.
But - there is a question at the end of the letter ! Asking me if I've got another mail from him with attachment (another project). I didn't.
I've decided not to reply tonight, leave it until tomorrow, or day after tomorrow.
It looks like we're getting back into the habit of e-mailing each other! I know, I know, no expectations...
He called me by my pet name too, both yesterday and today
To be continued (hopefully).
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
