Hound, thanks for stopping by man! Welcome back man! I am having a bad day today, the first one in a while. I think it is mostly because of my reaction to the reservation and my confronting her, I am embarrased and i know it set me back. Also because she didn't come home until 11PM last night when she said she would be home at 8:30 which is 2.5 hrs. The issue is more when you tell your kids you will be home before they go to bed you should do it.
I really feel like I am losing her now but mostly because of my dumb actions. She does want out but does not want to feel guilty. She would love it if it was my decision or my action that caused the D. Not happening man.
I realize I can not control her, I know I am trying to hard but all I want to do is straighten this thing out and get it back on track. It is also very hard to be in the same house.
Psyc appointment went well. He thinks she is Manic Depressed, in great pain and told me not to believe a word that comes out of her mouth. Don't ask questions because you will only get very hurtful answers. He also said I was the lightning rod for all her anger and issues and not to accept that.
I am accepting that I am a lot closer to D then R and I am working on affirming what she says. What I am having trouble with is holding my toung before I ingage my jaw. I need to stop and think about what i am about to say. This is really hard and is going to take a lot of time!
Thanks for your thought and please stop by more often.
