You guys are echoing my sentiments exactly. The overall vows seem to be just a tradition anymore. This world is fast paced and people do not need to put the effort into anything to make it better because supposedly, better can be had right around the corner.
It is important to stay focused and positive. It seems like you are making positve steps as far as the house and yourself. Puttering around the house sounds so nice. I long to just be able to relax and do nothing for a bit. The stress of worrying and thinking about this situation is tiring.
Oh, I would ignore most of what your H says. Especially now that he is upset at you for supposedly destrying the M. HA!! It takes two to make a M perfect. I would put all my faith and observation into his actions. Believe not what he says, but in what he does. More than likely he is feeling guilty and doubting his decision to do this. I deal with the same thing with my WAW.
Stay positive. It is not all your fault. Some blame has to be shouldered by each half. Smile. Think of fun things to do. Things that are your guilty little pleasures. Watch stupid geeky movies that you enjoy. Anything. I would recommend pampering yourself a little. Something to make you relax a bit more.
Ken Me: 37 Her: 38 Son: 8 (spina bifida) Son:2 M 6/24/1994 S 1/21/2008 Original Sitch