WAW's PA over, but still wants Divorce

[Hope4us]

Thanks Pooh. As bad as my sitch was/is I realize there are others that are/were in far worse shape than myself and my marriage.

In my sitch I've always thought we could make it once the POS OM was out of the picture. We had what I thought was a very good marriage before the A started. Even WAW said it was good, but she felt like there was something missing. There were just a number of things that all lined up perfectly to allow something like this to happen, and they did. Not saying I didn't have a part in the conditions that led to it, but the OM is a serial cheater and obviously knows what to say to women to get what he wants (because of the situation I did expose the A to his W and certain other people. OM went running back to his W after the exposure) and because of a lot of stresses in our lives at the time, WAW was vulnerable. At least that's the way I see it.

Sometimes I'm not sure calling my wife a WAW is accurate. It seems to me that she wasn't really planning on walking away until she got involved with OM, so maybe the WAW title doesn't fit. She sure thought she wanted to walk away after the A started and she still might, but it just seems that as we put some more distance from the end of the A that her fog seems to be clearing.

Only time will tell. I think time will be my ally. If anything I get to enjoy being a full time dad to our last son at home until he finishes school and gets out on his own.

I spent about 6 months feeling bad for myself (but all with her still in the house) before I GAL. Maybe that's what has got her interest back? I don't know. I really think her change the last couple weeks and especially the last week is a combination of the A being over long enough for her to begin to start thinking clearly, my GAL and my I can live with or without her attitude.

Incidentally, (maybe I'll just call her WW, wayward wife), WW has sent me a couple of emails at work today sharing things like she hasn't done in 6 months. It's like she's looking for ways to share/contact me. And it feels nice. I'm doing my best DB by not responding sometimes if I can just talk to her at home about it or by waiting for a few hours before responding so it looks like I'm not sitting here waiting for her emails.

I'm going to enjoy it while I can and I realize that I have to go slow and that there will be steps backwards. I just keep reminding myself to go slow, go slow. Let her come to me.

Thanks again for the comments. I appreciate it.