Things ended with him giving me a hug and a kiss on the forehead. When we were leaving is when he said their relationship was not what I had built up in my head. He said she calls him periodically but their "friendship" was never deep. He said she was just always someone to talk to and it was always very shallow. He said they never talked about anything important...just music and politics (things he never felt "connected" to me on). We had driven separately so when I got in the car I just bawled.
I am just so drained. I really feel like I am competing with her STILL. He couldn't see her even if he wanted to but I still find myself questioning if I am as much fun to be around as her. I am pretty quiet and she is very outgoing and talkative and I think that is what drew H to her (she is a radio dj )
Yes, there are positives. He called and asked me out Friday night and last night. He also called me on Saturday and Sunday just to talk.
I am really trying to be patient. The thing is that if his phone had been in his pocket and I never knew she was calling things would have been great. So is ignorance bliss?? I know trust can be rebuilt....I am just not sure how to do that right now.
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