Thanks...both for the well wishes, and the gentle 2x4. I've been needing it.
I have really let myself get way too immersed in snooping into H's A over the past couple of months. I get it...they had a significant falling out for a few weeks, but it didn't last, and they are still very much involved, and I have to turn away from it now. Not next week, or tomorrow, or after i check H's voicemail just one more time to see if OW has called him today or not...NOW!!
For while in some small way it served a purpose for a brief window of time, it's not doing me any good now. In fact, now it's hurting me more every day...pulling me down with unrealized hopes and fears of what the next week, next month or next year may bring.
I've worked so hard over the last year to banish the worries and fear from my life; to not let those things control and define me. I will not give back all that power now.
And the beginning of a new year is a great time to recalibrate my personal compass, and my own goals. i love the idea of a "by the time I'm 50!" list. That's going to be my very first goal...to commit those goals to paper.
