I agree!! My H & I have been through a lot too but I'm like you, I never even consider anyone else!! It is very frightening. I sure hope things will work out between you & your H. Any progress?

I hope my H will be in a better frame of mind when he comes to get his things. I really hope that it will be the beginning of the end with the OW now they are living together. My H & I didn't live together before M, he stayed with me some but we had separate apartments. He used to have moral values, I'm not sure what happened to those. He is doing so many things out of character for him. I talked to one of his college buddies & he couldn't believe it either. He said that doesn't sound like him at all & he would never have gone for a woman who had been M 3 times & who would run after a married man. He usually would say she was trashy. I'm just so surprised at his change & the way he treated me. He was down right hateful. He even cussed me out, I've never heard him talk like that before especially to me. He did apologize for it but waited 3 days later. He was mad because we were going to mediation & it was going to cost so much. That was in January. He blamed me for all of this & said if I had been taking care of my M he would not have gone somewhere else. I really was taking care of him but I guess he didn't see it. I was so devastated when he said all that to me. I do realize this is not my fault but sometimes I still think, what if?