Last night H called and asked if I had any plans for St. Patrick's Day. I said no and he asked if I wanted to come have a drink with him so I said sure.
Everything was going fine....until H's phone started ringing. He had it out on the table and I it was on silent but it would light up everytime it rang. I could see the name on the phone and it was OW. She called a few times and then sent several texts. He just ingnored it and I did too....until it finally got to me. I said "You might as well just go ahead and call her back because she is going to keep on until you do." He said "What are you talking about?" I said "I can see the name that keeps popping up on your phone." He just kind of rolled his eyes and then we sat in awkward silence for a while.
So then I went to the bathroom and came back. He rubbed my arm and said "are you ok?" I said "I guess I just had it in my mind that you don't talk to her anymore." Then I couldn't help it, the tears started flowing. I told him I was sorry that I was crying and he said don't worry about it. He said "do you want to know what she wanted?" I guess he checked his phone when I went to the bathroom. I said yes and he said..."she was callinng to tell me about the bad weather in TX."
He said every now and then she calls me or texts me something about the weather or politics (politics and music was the thing they 'connected' on) every now and then. He said it is always something that doesn't even matter. He said it is not this big romance that you have in your head, I really don't talk to her very much. So why did she have to call and text SO much about the weather??? Just doesn't make sense. Why doesn't she just leave him alone???????
I know I shouldn't have reacted the way I did but I couldn't help it. This morning I woke up and felt like an idiot and I really want to call him and apologize. But, I just don't feel like I will ever be able to trust him again. Our relationship is tainted and I don't know if I can get past it. I feel like I will always feel like he is deceiving me.
