I guess calling him is not doing any harm..he does not seem to be any different when I call and ask him to do things..we went to see the movie "Bruce Almighty" very good movie..with a great meaning and ending..good for some laugha and just all around good feelings. I thanked h when he dropped me off..I skipped church on Sunday and he asked where I was whe I went to the bible study he is teaching. When he talks I have a hard time making eye contact with him..but when I do, he also does and I have such a pride for him...I have never been very good at telling him that. So much I want to say to him..maybe I should write him a letter..fathers day would be a good time..ohhhhhhhhhhh I don't know. I don't want to scare him off...three is always time to say the things that need to be said..but if said too soon, or in the wrong way..it could blow everthing we have accomplished this far, and while I yearn at times for so much more..I am very lucky right now..I know sounds like another excuse..or maybe wisdom to know that deep down I know that he is not ready for a deep talk.
