I know this is a no no.. and I was doing pretty good not asking..but I kinda asked h today if he wanted to see a movie..he said he would..I am so confused if I should be asking him to do these things..if he did not want to, he would say so..wouldn't he, he has said no a few times..BUT am I pursuing him? Am I not letting him go..to think..the space thing..I so much want to be with him, yet I seem to be doing ok without him...To be real honest, if it weren't for the fact that I can't financially make it on my own, I feel like I could go on without him...While I still love him, it has been so long for any reciprocating of those feelings, I feel numb, or strange..hard to explain. But I still get a "feeling", like the old days, each time he walks into a room..or I spot him accross the room. I don't know...if he decides to love me again, or still..what will my reaction be..maybe it is a tad of anger that I don't want to acknowledge.. So..help me out..should I totally stop asking him for ANYTHING....I was doing pretty good on not calling him, and he started calling me for one thing or another..never just to say hi..how was your day.I keep thinking his lease is up in Nov..is he going to make a decision before then. When he moved he did not want to get too much stuff, as he said"he might not be there long". Who knows..I'll take it day by day...it doesn't get worse..but it doesn't seem to get better. I'll take that back..it has gotten much better over the past 7 months...I will be like LL, and realize things have improved, just not as much as I would like..PATIENCE
