I did not get the hug..oh well..I guess that kinda tells me that for now, h does not have those feelings for me. I have to respect them...just kinda sets me back to wondering if he really does despise me.
He said something funny today when I called and asked him if he wanted to have a 4th of July picnic here with some of our friends from church..he kinda sounded excited about it..he said he should get the grill back from ff that we let her have last year..of course that opened up for me to ask if he wanted to invite her and her "new man", h said they would be at his lake house..I said does she spend that much time with him, h said probably 24/6..I said why not move in and save $, h said he asked he that, but she said she needs her own space..whatever...h also said and this about shocked me off my chair.."You would think she might get d before she starts sleeping with another man"....this from my h, whom I as much as accused of having an a with her. I always felt deep down in my heart, past the pain that I felt, that he respected m as much as I do..things just happened in ways that pointed to me believing that she had some kind of hold on him...I do believe he has seen her for what she is....
