Sorry to read you are having so much trouble in peicing right now.
Can I make a suggestion??
Do something different. Now what that is, I don't know. That would be up to you, but take a look at what you have been doing so far and the reactions that you have been getting and get creative.
Think of something totally different. Think of something that would make YOU feel better about things and if you get a positive reaction from him too, well then all that much better.
Also, look at the positives, even if they are little things.
Cow is out of the big apartment - no more throwing money away every month! YEAH!
Your H is starting to answer some questions - GOOD!
He's home - EVEN better.
He's telling you he loves you - WOW! what so many on here would give to hear those words.
I know it gets hard and you seem to be having a rougher time than a lot with the peicing, but look at where you were this time last year with your H and how far you've come in that time and focus on the positives.
Sending hugs!
BFM
There is only one person who could ever make you happy, and that person is you. David Burns, Intimate Connections
