My story, please help

[GavinO]

Hi Germ, its a nightmare isn't it.

Incidentally I have been looking at things and understand a bit more about DB and the goals, I had the following short term goals (and still do)

1) W continues communication
2) W spends more time at home & with me
3) We talk small talk/rubbish

I had actally got some good ground with them, we had dinner together (seperately) and breakfast together which she cooked.

But I backslid and seem to have f*cked up on Sunday as I pushed and chased. I hope there is not too much damage.

She said she was going to take the property list and marriage cert and stuff to the solicitor on Monday, but the list and the cert are still at home as of this morning.

Her parents are away this week and she said that she will be staying there, definately on Wednesday, maybe on Thursday, but she was not back last night and I did not hear anything so I assume that she stayed at her parents.

I am letting go slowly but never giving up! I will focus on goals and DBing and I am in for the long haul, i hope to minimise my backslides and get as many baby steps forward as possible.

I owe it to me, my future and my W to never give up. I hope that she 'calms down'/loses focus/sees sense whatever and comes to realise that M is not all roses and easy and that love is more than just the high (kept it going for 9.5 years which is good eh!), that there is a deeper understanding and love that is worth going through pain to get to.

A magic wand will also be handy if anyone has one spare