Thanks for checking in Laurie..glad that your post here helped you also!!! It does help to write..
You are right about getting on with life..it is far too short to wallow in self pitty...I know alot of sitch's are much more complicated and painful then mine..but to each of us it feels the same. I don't want to carry around pain and anger the rest of my life..and I don't. I guess if h was nasty and lieing and cheating on me I might feel different. I have really begun, with the help of our new pastors and reading, to put my life in God's hands and guide me to what his plans are for me. I have not turned religious freaky or anyhthing, but have come to understand what role He plays in our lives.
Had lunch with h and sil today after church..when he brought me home I was telling him about the mouse problem in our kitchen..and he knows I almost get physically sick thinking about mice..I set the trap myself and heard it snap last night and our s was not here..so I inched my way out to the kitchen and saw it still moving..finnly it stopped..then I knew I had to get rid of it.. my heart was just pounding and I almost had a panic attack of sorts picking it up with tongs and putting in garbage..told h I almost called him..he just kinda laughed his old familiar laugh...a few months ago he would have just had a disgusted look..he never would have put me down for having the fear..but the smile brought back the relaxed h I married.
So ..tomorrow is a new week..and I have to go back to work after the week off..it has been a most relaxing week of gardening..reading..just gathering thoughts.
