Thank you all so much for checking in on me & giving me this great advice. I had to call H today about bills for this month, he is to finish paying out this month & then start alimony in April. I only got his voice mail & told him about an eye doctors appointment he has this week (obviously he won't make it) but I told him anyway & also the amount of the bills. I was direct, to the point & thanked him, & I did not ask him to call me back or say anything else. Our oldest dog has not been doing too well the last couple of days (will probably take to vet soon) & I really wanted to tell him about it but decided not to that if he wanted to hear he would call & ask me. Am I doing okay??
I'm going to try to plant some flowers around my house & make it look really nice by the time he comes to get his stuff. I worked a lot around the outside so far, some help from my Dad but mostly myself. My Dad is 80 & not able to do a whole lot but at least they are able to drive here & help some. They are 2-3 hours away.
I talked to someone today about a full time job, so that would be nice, not sure if I will get it but at least I'm getting my name out there. I would love to go get a massage, facial & stuff like that so I may try to pamper myself a little, based on your advice.
You know it's really hard, I know I've said this before but I really can't imagine my life without him & here he has moved on... but I can't help it because I just knew we would be together forever. I hope one day he will wake up & soon because if it's not soon it could be too late & I really don't want that right now anyway. Thank you all for being there for me!!!!
