H left about 30 minutes ago so he stuck around for 45 mins or so after D2 finally went down..
It's funny (and not in the ha, ha sense) that I see that H is really trying.. he's making an effort to include me in his daily goings on.. but at times it seems really forced.. I can't put my finger on it.. he just doesn't seem natural some of the time.. guess it shows that he doesn't yet feel he can completely be himself around me.
The visit was alright. He showed me his short film.. I affirmed.. told him it was great and how proud I am of him (which of course I am).. D2 had fun with him. He brought phad thai for he and I (D2 wouldn't give it a try) and it was really yummy. It was from a place right near his work and we used to frequent it often. As a matter of fact the night I went into labour with D2 we had take out from there earlier that day for dinner.
So I'm just going to keep on keeping on. He said that if he has time between his oral surgeon appt and his hair cut tomorrow that he'll bring me a starbucks.. so that was nice. We were also talking about all the foods he's going to have to eat before they break his jaw and steak is at the top of his list.. so he suggested that our dinner out together be for steak. How can I say no to steak!!!
Overall a nice visit. Got a quick kiss and a decent hug at the door. No ripping my clothes off or anything.. and I'm not going to initiate any more sex.. if he wants it he needs to put the moves on me.
I know there was some positives from tonight but for some reason it still felt off.. like his heart isn't really in it, you know?
Well I'm going to check in on a few threads and then head to bed.
