Sorry you're feeling down, but we all have those days. My advice is to direct your attention away from your H and towards more productive avenues. Really, the less you think about him, the more time you have to focus on the things that can make you happy.
Have you recently set or re-set your goals? Birthdays are really good times to do this. Maybe even make a list of things to accomplish before you hit 50?
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