Have I mentioned how much I appreciate the (((((((friends))))))) I have made here? 'Cause I should have!
You guys are the best!
Michelle, Lisa, and begginersmind, if you show up, I am sure my PMA would become much more positive!
I still want to peck away at the room. It is a lot better, I have just had trouble getting over the hump, so to speak. I feel lazy, but I don't know that that is really it!
I think I am getting more and more down about having no connection at all with W. And the kids will be the ones to really suffer, they do already. I'm sure she doesn't see that.
So, I think I do need to do for me. I keep doing for her, and it doesn't matter! Sink clean or not clean. She yells or not, but that's the only difference. So, where's the motivation? I don't really care if she yells anymore, she have already taken everything there is to take from me, so it just doesn't matter!
Boy, I do sound miserable. Maybe that's where all the energy goes! Enough of that. We are going to start looking out for me!
