seek, thanks, was getting worried about you, i'll pop over to you in a bit.

Yes i've seen that episode of friends, it's so funny, in realty its not, obviously men differ from women, if i've learnt anything, its that i'm dealing with a child husband. I should have made my feelings clear at the time of the seperation,that I thought it was a break for space. When i found out the bitch had left her H i did say to H that we needed to set some boundaries and not see other people, especially him seeing her, and he said he wasn't (but he already was).

Holly - i'm sure S2's easter bonnet would look just as good on h as on my 4 year old!

What did you mean when you said i was 'studdering' and that H was just winding up with his MLC?

MLC - interesting, my thoughts have wavered between his upbringing, he never grieved when his mum died, he had left home at 17, not particurlary close to his parents, they split when he was 14 as his mom had an affair, maybe he has depression, maybe commitment/responsibilty phobic, maybe i'm just clutching at the hope straw here and he doesn't love me as he has said constantly since the bomb, even when PA confirmed he still said he had told me how he felt.

He did have a tatoo 4 years ago and he always wants things he can't afford. OW is/was loaded, she had the lifestyle he craved.

Holly - was your H in mlc?

Holly - in answer to your question about having other people in this sitch to help, yes, definately. I think I would have filed last week if i didn't have the friends i have made on and off this site to help calm me down and see that there maybe hope and to not make any decisions that i may regret later.

i have just answered an email from H that he sent last night. He has replied, but i'm not opening it and i'm sticking to my 1 email a day rule. Having said that I did receive a phone call from h this morning. He came to collect boys for school as usual, s1 has not been well, i gave him some medicine first thing, h phoned me to see if i had given s1 meds? S1 is 8 and can tell his dad he had had medicine, in fact he and d2 DID tell H!! Then i had a follow up email, to ask if he needed to make a drs appointment for H. He should have taken him yesterday. I made the appointment in the end and took s1. He is fine by the way, but I did think it was an ear infection. S1 still went to school, so he wasn't that bad, if he were i would have made that call and not gone to work. H again is just contacting me for the sake of it, you may disagree as s was involved.

x evie


P/A confirmed 5/03/08

03/08 H said affair over, I dont think it is, h still doesn't want marriage

T: 13
M: 8
D:20 & 17 from Previous M
S: 8 & 4
BS: May 07 ILYBNILWY
S: 13/10/07