Okay- So I decided that I'll be a copycat and use a song as my thread title this time. This one is by Jo Dee Messina, featuring Tim McGraw. Wish I could give you all a YouTube link, but I can't access that at work. Maybe I'll stick it on there tonight at home.
Bring on The Rain Another day has almost come and gone Can't imagine what else could go wrong Sometimes I'd like to hide away somewhere and lock the door A single battle lost but not the war.
Cause, Tomorrow's another day And I'm thirsty anyway So bring on the rain
It's almost like the hard times circle 'round A couple drops and they all start coming down Yeah, I might feel defeated, I might hang my head I might be barely breathing - but I'm not dead, no
Cause Tomorrow's another day And I'm thirsty anyway So bring on the rain
I'm not gonna let it get me down I'm not gonna cry And I'm not gonna lose any sleep tonight
Cause Tomorrow's another day And I am not afraid So bring on the rain
Cause Tomorrow's another day And I'm thirsty anyway So bring on the rain
Ooh
Bring on, Bring on the Rain
No I'm not gonna let it get me down I'm not gonna cry So bring on the rain
Bring on, Bring on the Rain
Bring on the rain Bring on the rain
Journaling...... Well, it was a pretty good weekend. D3 and I went to dinner Friday night and then bummed around at some stores. On Saturday we got up and went to "Horton Hears A Who". Cute movie and D3 really liked it. We did some more shopping on Sat. Big bargain deals at Old Navy, so I picked up some things for D3.
H called about 3 times on Friday. The last time he called us was about 9:30 pm. He was at the concert in Omaha. We talked to him on Sat. morning and he got home around 3:00 pm....to an empty house. I didn't want to be home when he got there. He laid down to sleep almost as soon as we got home. I strongly suggested he get up for 5 minutes to talk to D3, as she was upset that he was laying down. I did tell him about her being upset on Thurs. night that he didn't come home. I felt it was time he heard things like this. We had dinner on Sat. night and then just hung out.
On Sun., D3 and I got ready to go see my Aunt & Uncle. I had thought H would be home when we got back, but he wasn't. He let us know that he was going out with some friends at 3:00 pm and then would be headed to the Springsteen concert here. Not sure if OW was involved in his plans at all. Didn't really bother me as much as I thought it would. H called D3 and I when we were on our way home from my Aunt & Uncles. He wanted to let me know that he was leaving just a bit earlier than expected and wanted to make sure we knew he wouldn't be home when we got back. Odd that he let me know that. I called him later from the grocery store and he didn't answer. He called back and apologized that he couldn't reach his phone when I called. He said he'd probably call us later but never did.
I fell asleep with D3 snuggled up next to me. I woke to find H in bed with us. He was turned toward D3 with his hand on her back. That to me was very odd. Lately H will not sleep in our room if D3 is there. Or, he'll move her to her room. Just a bit odd to me.
I've been looking again at apartments. Trying to find one that would really fit our needs. I really wish that we could stay where we're at, but I just can't afford it.
I've had my moments of crying still, but as sad as I get sometimes, I'm looking at how I really don't want to be involved in this mess anymore. I'm tired. I know I have a long way to go though. H and I will always have close involvement because of D3, but I won't be the one in the mess of a brand new relationship with someone with 4 kids. I won't be the one worried because it's 3:00 am and he's not home. Or the one who has to listen to his anger when something doesn't go his way. And trust me, that anger will be there.....no matter how happy he is with her.
Well, time to sign off and get some more work done!
