W tells me she feel nervious around me. i cant win, she just left fot a old job site to catch up with some friends. im left behind because she needs a time out from me. i guess last night in the hotel pool when our friends and her were playing i grabbed her to rough and now shes scared of me. i cant belive some of this is real. i just cant take it any more. i miss her and to have her so close, under the pretence of trying to work on our marrage, and to have her do nothing but push me away...
