tom, I did hear that...really very sad. obvious some huge mental illness going on. just awful. I can't even imagine.
things here are...okay. very very busy, which I suppose is a good thing. I am still feeling very sad about things...but I can only fit that sadness in here and there, because I have too damned much to do. lol. but yeah, it is still squeezing in. 2 more days till the anniversary of the bomb, but guessing it will be after easter till I start feeling more positive/proactive again. and that's okay. as sad as I am right now, I also can see I am NOT in the same place, not by any stretch of the imagination. and I'll get thru this...just letting the river flow (and flow and flow). not getting bogged down, just feeling some things, reflecting on things, feeling some regrets all over again.
I'm back at the gym again, that nasty flu is far behind me now. that definitely helps. and I scheduled an extra IC appt (I only go every other week now, but added this week because I knew it would be hard).
h actually asked me last week, btw, how I was doing, and commented that this must be a tough week for me. I just looked at him and said yeah, it is. I cried a little, he held me a little, but I didn't really break down. I saved that for after he left. he's been really sweet and really understanding, actually. not that that means anything, which I need to keep reminding myself.
sigh.
okay, enough whining. off to take the twins for their yearly checkup then off to dance class for D4. see, busy busy busy.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
