Unfortunately no, W has found the love of her life, a great new job etc etc, so W is going around saying how great life is. Everything is falling into place for W while I'm back to slowly falling apart.
Have the mediator tonight, the joy of paying someone a lot of money to tell you how you are getting divorced etc. So tired and down, S5 has been sick and coughing over the last week, disturbed sleep added to already poor sleep...
Stress levels have been rising, crisis at work, money, home... Even with W going off on one of her overnight visits to her friend (ie. visiting her OM) on friday and me going to a movie with a friend of mine on saturday didn't seem to help me rest.
Looks like W will be moving out end of June to look after a friend's place and then to another place in August... Looks like she wants to move out ASAP now that she is in love. Going to be nice and stable for the kids, having their mother move out and then move again after a month and again after another six months...
Also haven't been enjoying W's jabs about if I'll manage the co-parenting, from someone who is out every night and most of the weekend with her OM, "friends" or the gym. I'll admit I'm not the most organised or together person and that W (when she puts the effort into it) is, but I'm there for the kids a lot more than W is these days.
With W starting her new job she doesn't want to take any personal days, so I'm getting to take over the doctor/clinic visits too, at a time when my job is under fire... And getting to wake up earlier so that W can go to gym in the morning before work isn't going to be fun either. Wish it was as simple as going to bed earlier, insomnia and stress are not a good combination...
Feel like I have a hangover today, even though the only time I have had a drink in the past few days was two beers at our bi-monthly company drinks on friday. I can remember having this hungover feeling a lot over the last few years, and back then I wasn't drinking at all...
All feeling like its too much for me right now, need to get back to a more relaxed and calm place.
Brad
Me: 35 W: 34 S8 & S5 M: 11 IDLY: 08/2007
"Freedom's just another word for nothing left to lose" - Janis Joplin, Me and Bobby McGee
"Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass, it is about dancing in the rain!"
