State of Mind

[BeingMe]

Well, me hearties! I don't have a lot to report. I never did have the big moment with my H. We are still together, good friends, do fun stuff together, but there isn't much in the way of an emotional connection, or any intimacy. I am going to try and work on that slowly, and see where it goes. I am going into the life coaching field (start courses in May), so maybe that will help me with my own personal goals. Who knows what the future holds, and I am not going to worry about that ... just live in the now. I have learned a lot about myself from reading the book, A New Earth. It has opened my eyes to a lot where my own actions are concerned, about my place in the world, and about the path down which I want to direct my steps. Not sure where it will lead me, but I am hoping I will walk it without fear, and with faith that things will work out the way they are meant to.

I have decided to back off the bb a bit, and not post too much, or log on everyday. I just don't feel I am of much help to anyone really, except as a cheerleader, because y'all are so amazingly strong, and committed to making the best of your lives. There are a few of you I would love to keep in touch with, i.e. Phoenix_spark (you and I have been on this bb about the same amount of time, and have seen each other through so much ... yours was the voice of reason in the beginning, when I wanted to boot my H out the house, and just run away from everything, and my mind was reeling from the pain of finding out about the OW. Thank you sooo much!), Cat, Aud, Wii, ACJ, and keep up with your stories. I will check up on ya on occasion, even if I don't say anything. Those I am in contact with via email, please keep in touch (if anyone else would like to email me, my address is on my profile).

Love y'all, and hope for the best outcomes to your individual sitches! Know that there is one in 6 billion who will think of you often, and send positive vibes your way.