No one to turn to- 2

[addie]

Thanks so much Kalni and Jen. Your words make A LOT of sense.
I'm thinking less and less about OW and I haven't snooped in a few weeks. I admit I've had the urge to snoop but have managed to stop myself - I realize I used to get extremely upset when I snooped and would eventually have backslides due to this.

I came across an interesting article online that states that people cheat due to a chemical imbalance in the brain. The affair is a way for people to correct this imbalance but becomes addictive and the A has to be treated like an addiction. It goes on to say that the unfaithful spouse has a biochemical craving for connection. I found this to be interesting because this is something my H actually said to me when our sitch started to spiral out of control,after I suspected EA. He said he was searching for a connection with someone and he didn't think we had that connection (this was him rewriting our history).

H came over for a couple of hours this afternoon. He played outside with S for a while and then spent some time inside with S, also lingered for a while. I put some music on while they were outside and that put me in a good mood while making dinner. I didn't really have to "act as if"- I was actually feeling it. H didn't stay for dinner and I didn't offer. He said he had to finish doing some work and was playing hockey. Again, he was not as distant today. He said he wanted to come by Tuesday evening to take S skating. At least he is making a big effort to reconnect with S.