Hello hopeful, i am also a WAW who wishes now that i hadn't. In addition i have a PA (bomb dropped early Jan08), H in reaction has a PA too now and refuses to see a counselor as he wants to 'live his PA fully'. Learning that he had a PA provoked devastating emotional turmoil for me, i had to admit to myself that i cared far more for him than i would admit, after years of convincing myself that he was a great guy (and i have always thought that i couldn't find anyone better) but i wasn't 'in love' with him. I have ordered DR (although posts here seem to indicate that it doesn't really target WAS) and i'm trying to figure out what to do next. One obvious action, I presume, is to end my PA but OM is of great support to me since he's also a WAS (his kids S3 with Hunter Syndrome/D5) and also has desires to rebuild his R. Since H wants to continue his PA i'm terrified of ending mine and ending up all alone with no hope of return of H. Yet i know that i can't start mending if i keep a PA! What a mess - i see my kids on weekends (they are with H) and cry uncontrollably often, the kids end up consoling me which i'm sure is traumatic to them.
