Thought I would do a quick drive by since both of us have been at this for a very long time. I get the sense from my IC that the best thing for me would be to "punch out" as well and although I don't want to give up hope - like you, I just don't really know anymore.
Although I don't get much in the way of responses over in Hopefulness, I moved over to there. These days I try to journal although work has been keeping me way too busy - but I try to hit the highlights when I can...
It looks to me that you are at the "After the Last Resort" stage or are very close to that - and there is no going back over the Rubicon once that happens. No judgement from here but I know you will do the best thing for you and your children - and those who really know what you have been through will be in your corner regardless...
Me 52, STBEX 52 D 17, S 12 M 20 years Em Sep since 2002, Phys Sep Sept 2009
