Thanks Neecy! I'm doing surprisingly well I think. I have been on a cleaning streak since H left and did several hours of housework so far. I realize that half of my cleaning has been due to H, so I think now that he is gone I can really get the house looking good finally--something hard to do with him here (he is a total slob!). I am going to work on my play tonight and memorizing lines a little bit, but then I'm going to relax a little!
The kids are watching a movie and they seem fine too.H has seen them so little recently I think that helps, and he plans on visiting and seeing them just about as much or more than he has lately (if he keeps to the schedule he has planned of two nights and Sunday, and probably it will be more quality time, less him watching TV or going to sleep, so I think they will actually benefit by this!!!
I realized when I was helping him move out, I felt ready for him to go! I am tired of him treating me like dirt! I'm actually worried a little I don't feel a little more sad, I had about 2 minutes of crying and now I kind of feel fine. Maybe I'll feel sadder later but right now feel a little relieved actually, maybe even happy a little. I thought I would be a little sadder than this really.
I think H was surprised too btw. He said something about my Prozac was really working great I guess b/c I was helping him move and didn't seem that sad to see him go. I guess that makes him feel better to think my AD's are keeping me from crying in front of him--some of it is just that he has treated me so badly it is a bit of a relief to see him go!!! Karen
