on hold

[stella_k]

Hi 4myfamily, thank you for stopping by Are you going to start a thread? I would like to know how are things going for you.

I'm having - again! - quite a meltdown right now.

My H called and didn't sound good at all. Not an alien, though, something new. He said that he has told a couple of friends about their R ( admitted for the first time that he and OW moved in together). He said again that he doesn't know how to get out of all that mess, to which I replied that I'm not the one to advise on this and that he should get out the way he got in.

After that he said something in gibberish - oh, well, ok then, huh, well, bye then.
I said bye. And that was it. I knew it all along, I expected it, I was ready for it - or so I thought - and I'm in pieces!

Now I'm expecting a phone call from thr friend he spoke to - my D17 said he called twice already, I wasn't home. I am tired and so weary, I don't know how to face friends, family, it's been going on forever, or so it feels, I just want it to stop...

Oh, and I put him to test a little bit. I've told him that I'm considering to take a summer course (June and July) before returning to the hometown and asked him if it sounds good to him. Well, of course it did. Great idea, he said. Two more months full time with OW and me tucked safely away!

The way he said OW's name sent me flying backwards back into the pit. I guess all this time deep inside I was sure it's going to be the happy ending after all. Fool.

I was only able to hold and not break any DBing rules because I knew that I will come here and vent my heart out. Thank you all for being here for me.