No one to turn to- 2

[addie]

Yesterday afternoon H called and left a message on my cell (I actually didn't hear the cell). He asked if he could come by in the evening to watch hockey game with S on TV. When I got home he had also left the same message on the answering machine. Originally he was only coming by on Sunday to do something with S. I didn't call back right away. H said he was going to bring over some baking that he had done for a bake sale the previous day and proceeded to tell me how busy he had been with work and the preparations for the sale.
He arrived with several different types of treats that he had made. (It's the first time in weeks he's done anything nice for me.) I was in a good mood - I had a glass of wine with dinner; S and I were listening to music, singing along. There was something different about H's demeanor (glimpses of old H, not the alien). H asked what we had for dinner and I said he could help himself to some. He poured himself some wine and had dinner. While he was eating, I got a call from my sister and I was very upbeat on the phone (H didn't know who I was talking to but eventually did figure it out).
I had some of the treats H brought over and I commented on how good they were. H then went to lie down on the sofa with S and fell asleep for a couple of hours. He woke up when S was going to bed. H did some organizing of his papers for his taxes. I caught him staring at our screensaver for a while (a picture of the 3 of us) and then also going through a mini album with baby pictures of S.
I went into the bedroom to read. H soon comes in and lies down at the foot of the bed. He starts to talk about our sitch. The first thing he asked me is what did I tell my sister when she was visiting. I said he left because he was involved with someone else - he stared at me for a while. He said he doesn't see himself in any long term relationship that is not sustainable (whatever that means). He then went on to say that he understands my anger but he doesn't know what the future holds for us. He asked about my plans for Spring Break. I told him I was taking S away for a few days. He also asked about my intentions afterwards. I told him I planned on moving back to our hometown but not sure when - we had already discussed this before. We had a chat about non R things and then he left. It was a nice talk. I mainly listened and didn't say too much.

He's coming by this afternoon to spend time with S.