CAGZ new YEAR - (meredith your 5 years motivated)

[cagzmom]

Thanks TP - problem is you know - I KNOW BETTER! Snooping - yeah it is a like a compulsion right now. The things I am even finding out - no the don't give me any insight...just curiosity. Serioslly it does nothing more than feed my "adiction." I truly feel like an addict...like I did when I quit smoking. I AM NOT making good choices..

MY CHOICES! The pressure is unreal. I have been having "mental" setbacks lately and I don't know why. NO I HAVE NOT ACTED on any of them..but I want to!! Mental setbacks like:

*Go see H and "talk".
*Call H and see if he misses me.
*Call H and ask him if this is what he really wants.

NO I AM NOT doing this and I know that people (Friends & Family) are really over this.

Sorry --- as I said I am not doing very well.