Y’know something? I agree with LL. Ya gotta give yourself a break, pal.
You’re thinking too hard. It may sound hypricitical, coming from the master overthinker of all time, but you’re thinking so hard about it, trying to find a solution, that you just don’t have any perspective anymore.
Now, in practical terms, how do you stop thinking so hard?
Man! If you ever find the secret to that, let me know
Quoting KAW: I, too, have been counting on her seeking my comfort as an asset, but unfortunate she sees it as a liability. She sees it as being too dependant on me. More on this later.
Listen to her KAW. She’s having major self esteem issues. One of the most prominent symptoms of depression, which she readily admits she’s experiencing, is low self esteem. She simply wants to be her own person. She sees her reliance on you as a weakness that she has to fight. Normally, your support of her would be an asset. And it is, sometimes. But sadly, the fact that it’s an asset conflicts with her perception of her own weakness. If you think you’re confused, imagine how she feels!
Quoting KAW: This morning I woke up with her cuddling up behind me. That suprised me. Such a turn about.
Now for the bad part. Yea I know you guys are gonna stipped me of my title of "Master" because I keep doing this, but I looked to she what she wrote in her journal again. I just keep away. Basically, she's wonding if God is punishing her, but in the next paragraph, she wrote that hates being dependant on me and needs to get better physcally and mentally in order to then be able to be on her own. So despite all the affection yesterday, she still has thoughts of leaving.
She wants to be distinct, KAW. At the same time, she wants to cuddle. She doesn’t really want to leave. She sees leaving as a way of distinguishing herself from you.
Having said all of that, what do you do about it? Sorry, buddy. I wish I had the answers. If I did, I’d apply it to my own sit.
