Wow, I'm sorry this is taking this kind of turn for you.
You really need to detatch in a big way here. Start doing things for yourself. Make yourself happy and try not to worry about your M at all. I know that's very easy to say and not so easy to do but I think you really gotta go that way. LRT time.
Your W is in la la land right now. It's very likely that when this plays out reality will hit and the OM will be gone. At that point she'll start thinking more about you but in the meantime you have to make yourself a happier and stronger person...both for the future of your M and for yourself in the event the M doesn't work out in the end.
Always keep in mind though, that this doesn't mean the end of your M. Many people have lived through similar situations and ended up back again.
One more thing...quit reading her journal. Where has that gotten you so far? It only serves to drive you nuts so just stay away from it.
Last edited by rjd5974; 06/05/0306:27 PM.
A dream it's true
But I'd see it through
If I could be
Wasting my time with you
-Band:Phish Song:Waste
