I know your feelings about feeling first rate..my h is the first person that made me feel that way..he has never really been one to say things..but he has always made me feel loved...I did not finish school, but got my Ged just before we were m, and yet h never put me down, as others have..even now when school stuff comes up and I say I did not go to high school, people act like I am dumb..but I have a pretty good job..great, grounded kids..so I did something right. I don't ever want to feel like I did as a kid growning up..I am going to make myself top priority,as you should too.