sorry you are finding your sit less than pleasing these days...you say that perhaps what draws w to om is that he's unatainable...is it possible for you to become a tad more unatainable?? less there for her...less vested in her...more someone she does stand a chance at loosing..she is aware of how lucky she is to have you..you read of such feelings in her journal (and btw..shame on you for looking...but I understand..hell I'd look too! but what good does it do you?) so then is it possible for her to see that she may be lucky but luck does run out and that it takes more than luck to keep someone as wonderful as you around?? I know that you do not want to leave your w..and I'm not suggesting that you do..but what would happen if you just dropped the ball with the r..and stopped trying to make it work and instead devoted that energy toward making yourself happy??
