Last eveining was a very neutral night as she remained quiet most of the time, so I let her be. For the first time since last June, I noticed W had her journal out again in plain sight on her nightstand. As she fell asleep, I couldn't help but that a peek. She had written four pages, but with W being a light sleep I was only able to read the first. It comfirmed my theory's. She hid the book this morning, so now I'm going to have to paraphrase.

Basically, she said she can't get over her feelings for OM. In fact, her feeling's for OM are far stronger than any she has for me and she can't understand why that is, because he hasn't returned them back, meanwhile I am willing to move mountains for her [her words] and many women would kill to have what she has here ... but she wants to be Mrs. OM! However, he has made it clear its not what he wants. She's sees herself in a no-win situation and that is reason for her depression.

It sucks that I was right about this. DB Master, I've been called here. Don't think so. If OM ever shows a remote glimmer of interest in her, she would leave me in a heartbeat. The fact that he doesn't want her, is what has kept her here, not anything that I have done. She knows if she leaves me, she still would not be happy and won't accept what she has here will ever be good enough for her because of how she feels for him. How do I compete with a fantasy ... a phanthom she chases? The title of this thread should have read seamines instead and now I feel my boat is taking on water.

Sorry guys, just don't know what to do now .. what direction do I take?

'til later,
KAW