save a spot, will be here at some point

[cat03]

ok, that's a good thing to tell him, he does have some nerve, he didnt' take any notes, asks for a copy of mine, then later on says he can't believe anything on those notes about the house appraisal since they are on my handwriting, dunce!

He hasnt'called and i'm glad, i always get this uncomfortable feeling in my stomach when he calls.

it blows my mind to think that on one friday he says (after the big head on with crying ow at his moms that now that the truth was out and ow out of the pict that he wouldn't have that pressure from her and could think, at night he calls even wondering why he was so mad & depressed a few days ago, then 4hrs later calls me to tells me he wants to move back to ow.
ARGHGHH, still trying to fix the past, seems like we were so close to fix things but then again, if he is that fickle who knows what would've happen 4mhts later, would I'd be in the same limbo as the past 7mths?


This whole things still seems a bit unreal. i think it will be a bit more real tomorrow, I'm finally telling my family, H actually said I should tell them after we sign, dork, and ask why should i tell them now. I know he's afraid that they will change my mind about cooperating with him and being so lenient about CS.

OK, so by tomorrow night I need to decide
1-Payment plan, if indeed we go with my plan to buy him out, i have to pay him 8,000 in 5yrs, I got no $ now and will have to learn to live with my paycheck which is half decent and his CS

2- Wheter to give him one of the kids to claim, not every year, perhaps every other year? I will already be claiming all the house's excemptions.

3- At the end of the 5yrs, after I've paid him off all the $, what is going to happen to CS? will it go back up to the original amount? THe mediator suggested having it recalculated, the kids wont' need any more child care but would still need other stuff as they grow up, we both will prob make more, he did sait it'd be hard to figure out what would happen in 5yrs.

I'm glad I'd talking to my family, they'll help me think, though I am afraid all they'll tell me is to screw him up good for leaving.