I know I need to let it go, but dammit I'm having a helluva time doing it today. He's in Princeton right now at some conference (that's why he could only keep the kids four days) and I just think "why does he get to live this life free of worry and doing everything he loves and wants?" He loves the kids, and he gets to have them for "fun" stuff. He took them skiing while they were there. Great. But I get to have them through the good and the bad and when I am cranky I know they would rather be with him and frankly, I'd rather it too. I was a cranky mom today--what am I talking about, I still AM a cranky mom today and I'm getting no enjoyment from these kids at all--it's just a job--one that is wearing me out and one I am forced to do, like it or not, gotta keep trudging along. Ugh, I suck!
(((((((((Althea)))))))).
Being human is so trying sometimes.
I feel like this often, and I only have one kid; you're a damn miracle with four. But I wouldn't consider letting XH and the spiderwoman raise mine, and neither would you.
Have a drink, a bath, some chocolate and get some rest. There's something in the air today, many of us are off-kilter, present co. included.
