Kinda been laying back from the board a bit to refocus on job and home life to help keep on top on my game. Been much more active this year than in the past couple of years with has boosted my PMA some.
However, on the R front in the last few weeks has been so-so. Since the first C session about a month ago there's been a gradual but steady pulling back by W even tho she has seen C only one more time and then for the last two weeks she hasn't gone.
This had led to me doing a major backslide Sunday and stepping on another landmine.
I worked on a lot of projects this weekend and in my "spare" time I helped with my W's project of wanting to steam clean the carpets in the living room and bedroom, but the help wasn't reciprocated. The only relaxation I had was the hour I took at the rivershore after picking up some grass seed as my W was taking a nap when I left.
D9 was a big help all weekend tho. In fact, she was helping me as I was trying to finish up the tasks and get everything put away as the sun had already sunk below the horizon and D9, all of a sudden, disappeared and I was left to do it all. When asking D9's friend where she went, she replied her mom called her in to take a bath. I went inside to find W laying on the bed and D9 in the tub. I expressed that I was annoyed with her not checking with me if I still needed help before calling D9 away and yes I probably to be annoyed because I do have a difficult time letting go of the scorecard, but I was alright up to then since I was at least able to get some help from someone else until she pulled that away too.
KaaaBOOOM!
The old preceptions came back. She felt I was yelling at her and she started sulking. While I was annoyed, I was careful not to conduct myself as coming across as "yelling" at her, however, it didn't seem to matter. After a while, she said she may have read to much into what I said because she has been very emotional lately, but it still hurt and asked that I leave her alone for now.
So I'm in the "doghouse". She's been distancing big time. She was quiet yesterday until I asked about her day. Spent most of the evening with D9 helping her clean her room. Watched a little TV with W, offered to hold her hand, but she didn't bite.
Looks like I have some more work on myself to focus on and now I have some more time to do it...
She's been distancing big time. She was quiet yesterday until I asked about her day. Spent most of the evening with D9 helping her clean her room. Watched a little TV with W, offered to hold her hand, but she didn't bite. 
