Ellie, I'm not willing or wanting to admit that she had a PA. EA I can do, but not PA. Throughout the entire ordeal, I kept telling myself that I only knew two things: 1) I loved her, and 2) she wasn't being truthful with anyone, let alone herself. If we did reconcile, then I would do it with open arms and eyes. Before I opened my heart again, I would take the steps necessary to protect my emotions, i.e. counseling, true, honest and open communication.
