H is having affair after all

[Evie]

Holly & 25yrs (25yrs, i have to admit, i was hoping you would find me and was looking 'forward' to your post! at least i've not been 2x4'd for once - LOL)

I liked your posts, you answered a lot of questions i was starting to ask myself. Whether they were BOTH feeling any guilt etc. I like the quote that 'a guilty man attacks'b/c he's doing a lot of that. He's also very angry at me, why is that?

I have a question - how do you show your hurt and not your anger? and 'She knows more than you realize'?

I have a confesion to make and now that the anger has subsided a bit, i feel a bit guilty. I have told people. My friends knew anyway, but I have told colleagues, in my defense, I thought/think that the rumour was out already. Enough said, hopefully after the easter holidys things will have died down a bit.

I dread logging onto the computer to find more emails from H and had already decided that i would make another boundary of 1 email a day.

Although i have stated quite clearly that i am not making any major decisions yet, in an email today H still says that i haven't told him of my intentions for the business!! I did say in the email that the business would continue as normal... I'm not sure if he wants me to pack it all up or if he is trying to find out if he needs to be worried. Obviously, i could hurt him with the business as well as with finances.

I am trying now to not react to his anger or guilt, i've become less vocal since last saturday, and trying to be a bit more sweeter.....I'm glad it's all via email, b/c i'm printing everything off.

Thank you for the hugs.

x evie