Ok first of all I just managed to lose this entire post after typing it
I think yesterday I did everything to plan. It is too bad that it feels twice as lonely. Hopefully, if it works it will be worth it in the long run.
I had a good day with D4 yesterday, it was the last day of her March break and my day off. I had told her I would take her to the Veggie Tales movie but they flipped movies since it was Friday and it wasn't on, I told her we could go to Horton but she didn't want to. So we went to the mall and tried on Easter dresses and then I took her to lunch and she had her haircut, she decided she wanted it short like mommy's. It was a nice afternoon although yesterday I was feling kind of fragile. Everytime I got in the car I had a few tears, but, later in the evening everytime I felt down I thought of her little face when the hairdresser was spraying her with water and it made me smile.
H came home from work and I had picked up a pizza. He knew I was and hadn't asked for anything different. He mentioned a few times that he would have liked something with it. After we were done eating he got up and went over to the computer, normally I would sit with him. I got up and went to the couch and layed down. Mentioned I was going to lie there a few minutes then go in and take a bath. He got up from the computer and came over and talked a little about work. I listened but didn;t really add anything to the conversation. Then he started his nightly ritual, so what are "you" doing tomorrow night? I think "I" might go out and not come back till Monday morning. (this would never happen but just part of this game) I said I am not starting this again tonight. What? I am just asking what your plans are? Again, I am not starting this again tonight. I think I'll go take my bath. Went and took my bath, read a bit of After the Affair that I just picked up. When I got out he had fallen asleep in the chair. I put D4 to bed and read her a story. Turned off all the lights and went to our room to watch tv. He came in a few hours later and said, I can't believe you left me out there. Told him I would have got him up before I went to sleep(not).
I am taking D4 to a princess party of a daughter of a lady at work today. It is right behind H's store mentioned we might stop in after. He sent a text this morning saying not to stop in as it is a "bad scene".
