God give me the patience and the strength...2

[ddstartingover]

TOH - sounds like we are in the same state of mind. I do not have proof of OW. Only a feeling---it's also somewhat easier to believe there is someone else pulling him away rather than he just doesn't want me............

I am refusing to talk D until H deals with what is going on with him. I have told him so, and I know this is probably bad DBing, but I think his kids and I deserve that. He also needs that to be happy in the end no matter what happens. I also think he sees D as an easy out, a way to run away from our problems without facing them. It's so hard to believe that he can think D will be easy and no big deal for the kids---who still have no idea things are this bad since he for the most part is able to give the appearance that we are still a family.

Oops, I guess I'm kind of hijacking...........the NC didn't work for me either---I had the same problem, that it caused more distance and anger. I think that we all have to learn how to use the DB techniques that will work for our sitches and adapt. The love in my heart for my H is also what keeps me going---that and our three wonderful kids.

What are you doing for YOU? I'm making baby steps towards making a better ME and I fully accept and have acknowledged my role in where we are at. Is it too wrong to demand that our H's do the same? MLC or not, they are grown-ups, right? Ok, more bad DBing................

I hope you are able to have a good weekend.....I take each day by day and hour by hour.