I've learned that If there is one constant in this universe, it's change. Be still and let nature take it's course. Observe it's change and accept it. Adapt to it as best you can. That hopelessness comes from trying to intervene and change it's direction. You will always fail in that regard.
You have been at this a lot longer than most, I really wish you peace in the future!
"It is curious that physical courage should be so common in the world and moral courage so rare." -Mark Twain
