W went to the birthday party for her friend tonight. She came home around 11:15. Didn't say a word to me.
Earlier, D17 went out with her friends and told me she was going to be hanging out at one of their houses. I called her around 10 to check when she would need a ride. Normally she needs to be home by 11. She told me her friends mom would bring her home and asked to be home at 11:30 to which I said 'ok'.
Now, W comes and asks me where D17 is, should we call her, etc, etc, and is annoyed. I tell her, and let her know when D17 should be home. She's 5 minutes late and I told W that if she was not home by 11:45 I'd call her and embarrass her in front of her friends parents. W backs off.
At the time, our little beagle dog who is a mamma's boy is sitting on the couch being my buddy, and giving me some face lickin' because he is desperate for attention. He 'usually' sat with W in the evening and she usually was the person who gave the dogs attention. Lately he's been coming to me to hang out at night.
W said she was going to bed and I said that she should take the Beagle with her as he would sure like to sleep with her. He likes to sleep with his head in her butt. Yes, he's strange. He's a beagle.
She says "Well he can't because he'll get used to it and I'll be gone soon and it'll be too hard for him. It's bad enough he sleeps outside my bedroom door"
Well, ok then. I guess she's doing EVERYBODY a favor by distancing herself so we'll all 'get used to it'.
So, W gos to bed. A few minutes later D17 comes home at 11:45. I ask her about the 15 minutes late and she tells me she had a hard time getting her friends mom to leave to take her home.
She doesn't ask if W is home but would know since W's car is here. She tells me good night, says ILY and goes to bed.
So, I'm up in the bedroom on my laptop posting. Both dogs are here with me. This is our life. There's nothing left to hang on to, and no hope that anything will change. She's totally vacant of emotion, totally checked out. There is no love here.
What a mess my family is in. Sometimes I feel hopeless but I do my best to have faith.
