Well, W and OM have decided to go away this weekend for whatever...once again, my kids are excited as hell to want me to have them this weekend...as they seem to always do anymore. Boy, does this piss W off. Wonder why?
I read on here or somewhere, that if we have God's favor, he will set us apart from the ungodly spouse...so, maybe this is God's intention for me at this time, while he performs his magic on W. While I hope this works, still unsure if I want it for my M to someday come together again, or if I want it just because I care about her.
I guess she lost all her friends now...just has OM and her mom, and my MIL will only say that she will stick by her daughter, even if she doesn't like her decision-making...very noble, but at the same time..I don't know..
So, soon my D7 and S3 will follow SD12's attitude and basically move away from her and her life....W says she wants her own life, but it seems she is getting it at a BIG cost....
Meanwhile, I play the dad who is stable and sane..and doesn't bring a girl home evry other month for the kids to meet...which SD12 really cries about...makes me sad and angry...how a great mother can fall from grace like this..and lose respect from everyone around her. My kids want me more than her, and that is sad.
So, something has to give here..something has to snap her back to reality. What will transpire before she realizes what she has done to herself and everyone else? If she wants OM, I can deal and cope with it...but when I see that she has nothing but OM, I'm sorry, the new car smell of OM will wear, and then what?
She's got a reputation already, if you know what I mean, got many deep issues, I met her, and she became a great woman, lover, wife, and mother....now she gets a taste of single life again, and floodgates open for her that would horrify some WAHs...nothing seems off-limits for this woman at this time.
So now she claims she has fallen in love after one week of meeting this OM...been there, done that..Sd12 asked me how long this one will last before Mom kicks him out...oh, boy..I don't know what to do anymore...If I step in, I will see nothing but a tongue-lashing, justification, denial, and overreactions. She thinks everyone else has the problems...especially when they mention the "unfit mother" thing...yikes, lookout on that comment!
So, as I sit here and basically blog on a Friday night, with my kids fast asleep, I at least know they are safe and calm with me. There will be no drama and I wont find other things to occupy myself with or set precedence over my kids for. I just allow them to be kids...Thank you, Lord, for keeping my sane through this.
And, I thank you, Lord, for giving my strength to want my W back, not as in possible reconcilation, but as a PERSON AND FRIEND who use to be a intelligent, level-headed, faithful woman...to this..
I miss that woman...this one I see now, I would rather stay single..
