God give me the patience and the strength...2

[peacetoday]

OH
I went dim a few months ago when my mom got sick
I couldnt handle the two crises so I avoided H
at first, he got closer and tried to get me to talk ect
then he withdrew more
I stayed dim for 6 weeks but it wasnt giving me any results and we became so distant
so I decided to allow contact again
it hurts either way b/c with contact or NC , we cant bring our H back
nothing we can do will do that
maybe only patience( which I lack at present) will bring them home
if we wait for them to finish their journey and figure it out.
the hard part is some come back and some dont
all I can say is we have the kids, the house and the possessions. they are giving up sooooo much for a fling- a shot in the dark
logically, it makes sence for them to return..but still some wont
hold on
its just a bad day
tomorrow will be better
peace